Saturday, January 16, 2010

apakah yang sedang terjadi??

kenape entah perlu teringat. rasanya tidak perlu dan tidak patut. memang salah sekali. tapi kenapa sekarang pula? aku memang tidak hendak. mungkin adela hendak sedikit. tapi sikit je tapi. tidak hendak lagi banyak dari hendak. jadi, tidak hendak la. tapi lagi akhir-akhir ini, sejak satu dua hari ni, teringat sangat-sangat plak. keadaan ini pernah terjadi dulu, pernah mengikut kehendak, seperti berada di atas awan(walaupun tak tahu cane rase dok atas awan, maybe rase cam bile lalu awan dalam kapal terbang kot. ceh padahal tak rase pape pon dalam tuh), dan komplikasi terjadi, keadaan mengada-ngada lemah jiwe kacau, dan akhirnya tidak gembira selama-lamanya(not happily ever after). kata orang, ikut hati mati, ikut rasa binasa. nasib baik aku tak mati lah time tu. dan syukurlah tidak binasa juga . yang mati mungkin hati. dan yang binasa itu perasaan. hati yang mati belum boleh dihidupkan kembali. cuma perasaan yang binasa itu mungkin, mungkin sedikit sebanyak telah menjadi elok sedikit. mungkin elok banyak dan terbina kembali. terima kasih kerana itu walaubagaimanapun.


persoalannya sekarang, perlu dilayankah atau ditidak-pedulikan aje?

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

hello twenty-ten.

yeah right. it's already the 2nd day of new year; 2010. My new year begins with a beauty sleep. A good way to start, no?haha. The fact that I am now in KB leaving me with no choice but to sleep while others were celebrating new prosperous, blissful(hopefully) year joyfully. I dont even know if there were some kind of celebration or at least fireworks at 12am, 1st Jan 2010. Is it allowed here(KB) or not? other reason for not celebrating new year is that I dont have that many friends to hang out here. So, most of the time i just chill at home with family.

ok, moving on to my new year's resolutions, there are so much that I want to do but lets just get on with what I need to do this year. and the list goes as below:-

1) to be a better muslim.
2) to finish my degree by the end of may/early june.(this is a must actually)
3) to start working as an engineer by the of the year.
4) to SMILE more. so if you see me smiling at you, just smile back, i'm not crazy.
5) potong level barnbuddy FARHANA KAMARUDIN! this is serious!

I have more, but lets just focus on these top fivesss!
GOODLUCK PAKU!












p/s: i wrote this on 2nd jan but it stayed as draft until just now. hehe